And the sugarless coffee made me think.

5.30.2006

I thougt today was just going to be one of those days. Until a young man, just a few years my junior asked me for a cup of sugarless coffee. Not that he drinks coffee unsweetened, it's just that he has no other choice. My office ran out of sugar.

Today, over a cup of coffee, we talked about a lot of things--from the most miniscule, to mundane to what-have-you's. We always do this everytime he getst the time to visit me. Over a cup of coffee, we stare in oblivion, celebrate our pasts and share each other's fingernails-scratching-the-board" kind of stories. We rarely get to this kind of discussion, and almost always, I forget to tell this young man, how much I appreciate his effort---and his hEARt.

And then we talked about our "pasts". No, we don't share a common one, but we went through the same scenes, battled similar chaos and walked through it unbaffled. Today, we talked about our "high school friends"...our old, most-cherished high-school friends. And I must admit, I do miss the creeps. The people who took care of my all these years, who taught me how to drink without getting drunk, who offered me homes to sleep over the night in, and best of all, who took me by the hand when I was sooo busted, and hit me in the head when I have gone out of my wits. (which was all the time)

And I wonder, where could they be? For sure, we still all stay in the same province. We still care about updating each other's mobile numbers. And we are still planning a summer getaway trip ( only summer's over now). Everything's okay between and among us, except that we don't have the luxury of meeting "regularly" now. Someone has gone astray, got married, one's in a casino, yadda yadda.

We are all living our own independent lives now. Just like how we imagined it to be when we were in highschool. We used to talk about this "state of life", and now,swiftly sudden, it's all over us.

And now, more than anything else. I'd love to sit and talk with them. We had good memories together.

And I'm dying to make more memories to ponder with...in the future.

With my friends...